🏴 Hello (multilingual - salut, saluto, hi). 🏴
This page is mainly for me - but for other people, too.
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from Edward Jones.
I like music tracks!
Comment, to myself: my thought of the next stage in this personal project is to input (add in) some links to files (to add, also) - I have enough text written.
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Generally, simply… I am an adult man, I don’t speak much, I have some distrust of my memory, do things myself and need a bit more time to move on.
I give myself too much of a difficult struggle to do tasks - living and explaining tasks - seriously, in time to be at peace, all done to let go and have done things with meaning in my days
…but I do it too right and feel overloaded because I think I can do things myself to keep on top of it and I distrust I can use good help or support to do my “tasks” because I think I fear losing myself in help and going back in healthcare… I know what to do because I have been living isolated in care places too long and no-one tries to help if I don’t say I am in need of it.
I want a “normal life” with friends but it’s difficult really to enjoy fun and keep on top of things myself, worried… 😟… or get support and lose some time and free choice, communicating my needs. If I stop, socially, I may get tired and have no trust in being OK, myself.
Isolation has given a future of finding meaning to my staying living, that I dis-trust people can give me because the healthcare has left me with no trust in my “sense of self”, to want to give time to them. But we don’t need to keep a defined “self”, I know humans have it built-in. Life is more about behaviour from experiences and views than choosing right. Be you.
I have problems with trusting my memory and anxiety fears from living in care and shared homes for much time, justifying my self-control defensive choices. I have thoughtful qualities, my religion is a scientific pantheist (simply, philosophical and non-religious) but I may be very sensitive of people intruding into my thoughts if/when I am socially withdrawn (“tired”)… and then don’t feel able to accept that I need to save the work and stop.
I have realised that my choices sometimes may not be the best choices.
People can do anything they know how to do - “anything is possible” - but negativity is the only limit.
My perfectionistic ”💯” Autism experience has taught me that “when a person does not stop enough (at good, acceptable times) to rest from stress overload, or they don’t manage the inter-personal issues of isolation with responsible awareness and adapting to changes and interacting with others… their survival defense mechanism will be led to a loss of energy, the self-control power will end and become negativity automatically.”
If I don’t care as much about planning and “good enough” 🚫💯 actions, allow myself to take (better) rest breaks 😌 at good times and adapt to the changes life has 🌬️🎯💨, with an awareness of people (and possible social needs to resolve) 👥, I can manage difficult events and take life less seriously.
I feel generally like I self-reflect too much on my continuous choice-making and other thinking, don’t normally rest for long enough over the day and I am too aware of having less time before other people have needs to tell me questions to answer and then some peaceful space is broken in by social living responsibilities.
Shared living with people and limited free space, is tiring!!!
My top “mind skills” are showing philosophical, peaceful values to be living by; advocating in person knowledge on the Web, melodic music, or F.O.S.S.; skills from (UK) GCSEs - de ça, je peut utiliser un peu Français que je comprends… mais seulement quelque - aussi, langages ou langues sont difficile.
The key info (from me) to know about and remember this new “good enough” balanced mindset  of awareness I am doing, is:
• I care about my life and I have worried over too much time about change around me, what to choose and having good rests to myself. I am now an adult man with some anxiety.
• The smart way my careful, analytical, “realist”, friend-less, intelligent, nervous, sensitive and distrusting brain mindset works may be explained by this philosophy idea about limits of abilities - : (1) consistent good energy or power of a stable amount, or quantity - and (2) finding, or having, one or more alternative ways - a change of plan… to do any item of work (some task)… are the singular (only) main limits, I think, that can affect being able to do that task successfully (“carry it out”) — my real life examples of this abstract thought (generalized concept) are (1) the limits there will be if there is (a need to keep being able to use) a remote access connection to a distant computer - and (2) by expanding or extending that general thought, it is the way to keep being aware of changes in real life and to manage the changes by using an accepting awareness of (the) senses - to be able to let go of plans in the brain (thinking) about tasks, if they don’t work… and to save some of the thoughts, to stop and help other people with the plans they wish or want to do… and to take healthy breaks to let go from having choices to judge, of what thoughts of action plans are right to do - and what ones would be okay to give away (to “save for later”, or simply let go from not doing them)
• My final overview thought summing up this is only… “Sustainable living is a mindset of taking to the mind a way (remembering how) to balance your needs with enough awareness of (a need to have some) respect, to manage possible conflicts with other people.”. From today in 2026, I think I will try to… “keep being aware” (of things that can change) “and try to minimise my loss of it” (being aware)… “and” (of having enough) “energy along with it, besides”, to manage change or things that go wrong - a more assertive way to use my time and manage my Autistic Spectrum (ASD) social tiredness  because of: the fear I have of losing something important to my life, the difficult issue I have with feeling safe because of a childhood that went wrong, the intrusive watchful threat from people’s observations reported to social care services that want to protect me… and my self-centred focus or sometimes defensive actions in a personal timeline plan to keep myself on a path to resolve that fear, in my work to prove I can manage my ability to live.
• I do too much productive work, too, then have “no energy”. I will give up journalling! BUT I may use temporary notes to help my memory loss.
The introduction to my thought about progress forward:
I have come to an end, of wanting to live the same way. 😮💨
This is a note of the disconnection I was feeling. I am lucky or fortunate to have the places, people and things I have today…
but I feel I am too careful, perfectly, nervous and fearful… afraid of losing self-control of my timings I use to keep me moving through the personal schedule I try to do.
I always give myself plans to do, to not be “stuck” with no trust in my ability to go through the day.
An update to this introduction:
I have done some changes.
Having good energy levels and very little of (self-pressured) feelings,
that I should be productive with things to choose,
can let me show more kindness to people.
I am limited by thinking about the negativity of things I don’t have or have not done… and the negativity from other people about this - the same way to that limit.
I’m not much of a food - interested person. I like coffees, healthier drinks and some good-tasting vegetarian snacks more often, instead.
Go to the original main page, in this project from me?
…or… continue to my saved reminder notes list …or… continue to my description of what I know to explain that laws don’t have meaning (only the in-person experiences can be real to the individual mind living it).
“I may be able to do a formal presentation at a point in my long life, on the topic of laws being abstract, without (not having) a definitive meaning…”
- Laws don’t have verifiable definitive meaning, as government authorities give trust to do the tasks of responsibility, to “in-between” proxy persons acting for the larger system…
- and they enforce what (only) they believe to be truth
- … but individual experience is likely to have a bias from the subjective experience each individual has, they have different points of view (perspective) and shared knowledge forms “truth”
- … but specific claims can only be verified to be true by the claiming personal individual point of view… and remembered (subjective, internal) knowledge that comes together with similar experiences, is based on language choices, responding to conditions and behaviour by the subjective individual experience
- … and that response can be influenced and is perceived… by the other individuals, which are members built in to the universe of life…
- and because of that worldwide “seeing is believing”, no general “facts” or “truths” are not “inter-” subjective based, as “right” and “wrong” things are viewpoints of subjects (one person’s judgement), implying no part of any “right truth” may be verified “truly” to be truth.
- The “truth” result of logical conjunction of the set of collected perspectives ( or the result of “every individual of a group coming together to find an agreed rule”), has no technique to prove the truth of individual parts of the one truth, to prove the group truth itself is a truth, so…
- … also the shared general group “truth” itself cannot be proved or disproved as correct (“right” and “wrong”), the error may be built-in.
- Computer systems are much more able to be evaluated to understand their model and know their operations to have use of them, there is no “right” way there to have the wanted results and solved problems…
- … but there is no “right” way in life to get it right either, as life is more than choosing, it is about behaviour from experience and views.
👤 My reminders 💭🔔
- Task things to do daily and some weekly ☑: … ★ feel more confident, not too serious ★ tell people if I don’t like something, someone’s choice, or the way they are doing/had done something ★ work on a sustainable balance 🌍 and healthy mindset. The only problem is with what’s enough. Not having too much of anything… being a self-balanced person. Social tags: #lifestyle , #mentalwellbeing , #life , #spirituality , #morals , #meditation 🧘♂️🧘♀️ ★ normal health activities I need to do - remember to brush teeth, a shower/wash - 🫧, some activities - sunlight, drink & food (meals to prepare, snacks, treat foods), get shower gel & shampoo (maybe) for washing – 🧴🫧🚿, sleep in the night to rest & help my brain - 🫠, clothes washing, clip nails, comb hair maybe, haircuts.
- From X.com : Every person you see today, in [… places you go to], is fighting battles you [may not] know anything about. No one wears a sign saying “I’m struggling”. Your kindness, your energy, the way you hold the door might be what saves their day. Choose to lift others as you lift yourself [too].
- If my brain (mind) is tired 😩 and / or I feel pressure to do something 🗜 without another time to redo my choice(s) of action 🔄, I want to be careful (worrying more than most other times)… BUT I DON’T NEED TO PUT PRESSURE ON MYSELF TO DO IT RIGHT THEN. 😒 Nestlé KitKat chocolate wafer products use a slogan phrase “Have a break”. There was a Mars Twix 2022 ad saying it doesn’t matter which of two things you choose, they’re both okay choices.
- Some people have said I am smart and strong, able to do things by myself… BUT THEN SOMETIMES I DON’T CARE OR THINK ABOUT THE RESULT OR CONSEQUENCE OF WHAT I’M DOING, I WANT IT DONE… Try to know or understand if my actions cause a person or the people around me to be affected, will there be a possible misunderstanding with sad and negative effects? 🤔
- I have noted “It’s hard to think of what I enjoy because I have lost memories and interests in doing some activities. Using computers to make things 🧑💻, melodic music 🎶 🎧 and optimism - and coffees ☕ (healthier caffeine canned drinks and good vitamin/protein snacks).”